what i said i'd do

two nights in a row i have come across individuals that have really dumbfounded me, i touched on one of them yesterday, but i feel they deserve revisiting, in all honesty, i never talked to her, and so i will have to say that this may be someone self-fulfilling, but at least i'm fufilled.

the reality of so many people is that they hope to god that they're different. they hope to god that the labels they apply to themselves make them stand apart. they look at themselves as religious subverts that are above the fray by simply opposing the status quo pressed upon them.

girl #1: you wear shirts with stripes on them. no names. if there was, it'd be french. you wear boots straight out of an early 90's jc penney catalogue. you prolly bought them out of a boutique that scours thrift stores and closets the world over. you reject the notion at you are different yet you cling to it. you call yourself a free spirit, this isn't hampered by your inability to dance without alcohol, alcohol helps you i'm sure.
but so far i'm just saying things i could say things about people i love. what makes you laughable is your inability to notice that you are a wreck. your eyes scream it, your eyes whisper of hope, and speak of simplicity, but scream of doom, impending. it may just be the way that you act, but people are around your first because they love you, but second because you can't come to grips with how to please them, the wolves in them are just waiting. you are a drunkard and a fool because of it. you are a sloppy, hypocritical wreck incapable of keeping my attention after numerous undressings. you make me sick. you are so damn alt. you make me never want to turn 21. i felt old and young that whole night.

girl #2: you see yourself as something more than a mississippian because you are liberal and catholic. the irony is that you are essentially the same person as everyone else with different boxes filled in on your SAT (i say sat because you took that to go to school up north, your ambitions....). your ambitions and intelligence are a foil to your complete boringness as a person. i can't tell you apart from anybody else, people like you make me angry because you are so scared of confrontation that you silence other confrontation. you disguise your pascifism with straight up being a coward.

guy #1: you were kind of a douch.

girl #3: you are high strung, and you incapable of beleiving that someone could have opinion other than yours and still be an intelligent person. and you talk like a dude.